03/01/2013 Friday

It was an awful day. And long. Started at 9:00 AM and we just now got home (6:15 PM) from getting the night shift all clued into a little bit about her. YES, she is freaked out and YES, it’s a terrible situation and she knows it. I told her tonight that we are doing all we can to get her out of there and YES it could take a couple of weeks. OMG this is so awful.

 I met with Hospice today as well and they will start next week. Let’s hope they are not all smoke and mirrors.  I gave mom ear plugs, a white noise generator, and a sleep mask in case the lights from the other beds bother her.  

She is clearly upset by the move, today when Genevieve and Virginia tried to get her to put her pants on to get up for lunch she was combative and aggravated. A far cry from the sweet, cooperative woman she was a day ago.

I feel like I have let her down and it breaks my heart. For sure, I know it was not me that is letting her down but it sure feels that way.  

I invite all of you to go visit a Skilled Nursing Facility if you have not already had the unfortunate experience to do so. It will scare you straight!!! You will, and should do everything in your power to try and avoid this happening to you or any other soul you know.  

This is NOT the answer for our elderly and disabled folks. I want my mom to have a place to die with dignity and this is not the situation for that.