03/12/2013 Tuesday

Gregg had a phone conference with Sadie at the SNF. One of the things we learned was that Dr. L. decided it wasn't necessary for the 2^nd time I requested to have a liver panel done. BUT, no one had the courtesy to let me know.  I asked on 2/22 and again on 2/26 now I find out on 3/12 that he decided not to do it. WTF?

I did not go see mom today. A loving, well-meaning friend gave me a 2 hour massage. It might have been too much….or not enough, hard to tell. Either way I was not ABLE to face anything the rest of the day. When Gregg told me about his conversation with the director I wasn't able to have any emotion about it at all. 

Wednesday the 13th, as I am writing this I have so much anger I cannot contain it. I had to go in and ask Gregg to hold me to keep me from “exploding”.